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Monday, March 30, 2009


Go to the music player of your choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud and press play. Use the song titles as your answers. Don’t cheat. ;)

1 - How does the world see me?
Song: Life In Your Way – Light in Mine.
Comment: I’m the light to the world according to the lyrics…..hah…it leaves me speechless (blush).

2 - Will I have a happy life?
Song: Time Lapse Consortium – I done Already Been Up In There
Comments: I guess not then.

3 - What do my friends really think of me?
Song: Fall Out Boy – 7 minutes in heaven (Atavan Halen)
Comments: Hmm… interesting, they think I’m an emo. It’s awful.

4 - Do people secretly lust after me?
Song: Incubus - Azwethinkweiz
Comments: Brandon is the Sex., so maybe people secretly lust after me. I’m not exactly surprised u know=D

5 - How can I make myself happy?
Song: Tool - Sweat
Comments: Questionable..sweat would make my life hell, or more hell!

6 - What should I do with my life?
Song: Unsun - Whispers
Comments: That doesn’t sound too good.

7 - Why should life be full of so much pain?
Song: Disturbed – The Night
Comments: Ah well, cuz during the night there are some bad creatures… love this song <3. *headbangs on heavy guitar part*

8 - How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?
Song: Tool – Maynard’s Dick
Comments: Now I know what I’m looking for…Maynard’s dick! That sucks in a way. I have no comment here.

9 - Will I ever have children?
Song: A Perfect Circle – Sleeping Beauty
Comments: I will sleep all the time. So I’ll be such a lame mommy and I won’t take them to school every morning and prepare breakfast….(sign of relief all around especially cuz of the breakfast :D)

10 - Will I die happy?
Song: Soulfly – Downstroy
Comments: Doesn’t sound like a happy death.

11 - What is some good advice for me?
Song: Alesana – Red N Dying Evening
Comments: I’m confused with this one.

12 - What is happiness?
Song: Funeral For A Friend – The Getaway Plan
Comment: Indeed, to get away from this all. I want to travel more often but not alone- this will really brighten my day.

13 - What is my favorite fetish?
Song: Disturbed - Remember
Comments: Oh yeah Disturbed ..

14 - How will I be remembered?
Song: Disturbed -facade
Comment : Yeah, am I supposed to pretend I’m not feeling what I’m feeling…NO!..so what seems to be the problem?

it could be mor interesting i guess...

Thursday, March 26, 2009

song meanings- A Perfect Circle

BLUE - I love this song of APC.. it's so sweet and although it's always dificult to find out what exactly Maynard means .. I make this stupid and lame interpretation :

I didn't want to know
I just didn't want to know
Best to keep things in the shallow end
Cause I never quite learned how to swim

Obviously, he doesn't care bout the truth, he is so fed up with everything that he prefers to pretend things are like before – perfect and simple. It's so much easier for him to stay and sink into the oblivion than to move on. In addition, he is sick with all the complex things in his life and he needs things to be easy. His past make him suffer a lot but he never quite learned how to fight with the fake and ugly people - how to be strong.

I just didn't want to know
Didn't want, didn't want,
Didn't want, didn't want
Close my eyes just to look at you
Taken by the seamless vision
I close my eyes,
Ignore the smoke,
Ignore the smoke,
Ignore the smoke

This line "Close my eyes just to look at you": well.. truly.. this is my favourite part of the song. But what does it really mean? Is it cuz he wants to stay blind for the world and things that are going on, so that she could stay with him? He's like closing his eyes for all the bad things.. and that way…in his memory she is clear, pure and perfect – the way he wants her to be.
The "seamless vision" - okay, almost 5 years I thought it was SEEMLESS VISION!.. but it's seamless or leaving no trace. This is probably the vision of her.. that is only in his memory –he is obsessed with it - it’s not true and he’s living in some kind of a dream.

Call an optimist, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call an optimist, she's turning blue
While I just sit and stare at you

He just try not to think bout her, distracting himself with everything else. And finally, she is gone (dead or just he doesn't love her anymore) and he's relished. Blue is such a lovely color for her - cuz it represents his feelings and how he doesn’t want her anymore. Although she is so ..pretty, she lied to him, and he is better off without her.Now that she is gone ... he can be free again.. or something like that J

Because I don't want to know
I didn't want to know
I just didn't want to know
I just didn't want

Mistook their nods for an approval
Just ignore the smoke and smile

No wonder… he wants to ignore the talk and the lies (the smoke) cuz they make him feel useless and desperate.
Call an optimist,
she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call an optimist, she's turning blue
Such a perfect color for your eyes
Call an optimist, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call an optimist, she's turning blue
While I just sit and stare at you
I don't want to know
To be continued :)

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

hellbounds on my trail

blah , blah, blah?
this day is strange. n there are some lame girls round me.. it's really boring to play nice with all of them... I see how a thousand people are relish to take down some others... what's all that for? How desperate can you be to act like that ?
I'm kind of okay with that though:)
At least I don't have to go trough my whole life, worried my best friend will humilate and betray me, cuz I know it already.
mmmm let's face it-- D. hates everyone lately. No wonder I listen to Children of Bodom a lot - especially their last album... which is so... pretty:)
That's all I can write today, cuz there is nothing interesting to talk about, I'm just trying to do all of my projects at the uni which makes me feel sick.
def need to go back home for a day...
okay goodnight (zzzz)

Monday, March 23, 2009

I hate Mondays...TOTALLY :)

For those of u who love mondays, i have the biggest news ever - for me this is the most awful day of the week.
Today it was snowing n I had the most boring classes at the uni.. you have no idea what it's been like.. to sit 3 hours and listen bout sex tourism or bout the great and super cool book "Harry PoRter" pffff....
But guess that's how things are supposed to be...
The question that really bothers me today is : did 'd' think bout HIM and will she get without a fight?
p.s. was it only a day since i have this blog... and still.... I have no idea what to write here :)

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Back Off Bitches

I don't know what exactly am I going to write here.. but probably it will be useful someday:)