Hi there,
I decided to continue posting - you can read here about... me :)

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

той никога няма да го чуе от мен :|

Friday, October 15, 2010


Wednesday, July 7, 2010


this whole thing about the letters is not for me. i hate writing.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

4 day - a letter to my sister

Hi Bib!
It's going to be difficult to write you a letter.
In fact it's almost like writing a letter to myself cuz you know everything about me. You know my every thought.
I love you for being such a cool sister. I know sometimes I drive you mad and you probably hate me for all the stupid things I've done.
And thanks for keeping me from not doing really really really stupid things:)
You are my big smart twin hahaha.
OKay, that's all :)

Friday, July 2, 2010

3 day - a letter to my parents

Hi mom and dad!
I miss you a lot. I don't know what to tell you cuz I hear u almost everyday so yeah ... I guess the most important thing is that I LOVE YOU so much. But you already know that I hope:)
Although sometimes I'm not the perfect child I'm just trying to do my best which is not probably always the best. I guess I'm still looking for my way in this life. I will figure it out soon!
I love you and you are the best
your daughter :)

Thursday, July 1, 2010

2 day - a letter to my CRUSH

Dear Crush :)
I won't tell your name here cuz you still dont know how much I love youuuu:)
But I really really like youuu so much. I mean you are like the cutest boy I've even known. From the first time I've seen you I think I knew you were going to be an important part in my life.
Thank you for keeping me sane and happy all the time. Without you my life would be so blank and I don't know.. I like spending my time with you although sometimes I don't show you how much you mean to me.
In fact, I don't know but when I'm around you I 'm so different and I can't even say what I want.. I mean - I have this "word-disappearing" sickness and I can't find the right words. So, yeah - it's not like I don't have fun with you - I'm just shy and insecure:)
Love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

1 day - a letter to my BEST FRIEND

Hi :)
Well, we haven't been talking for like... a year but you are still my best friend.
Hope things with you are just fine cuz I'm doing great.
Oh gosh.. I want to know how are u doing really BUT I'm not going to call u first cuz I guess I'm still mad at U:)huh it sucks u abandoned me for a better friend :S
I miss our pointless conversations and yeah how things used to be ;/
In fact I know that u have a lot of changes recently in your life. I've met a classmate and he actually said u were great and I felt really sorry and angryyyy that I can't be with you.
However, I wanted to tell u about how important u are and how fun it is to be around u!
yeah ...
p.s. hey, I know u like Angel Sanctuary - so u will probably like Devil May Cry, too :*
love u
Your friend


I will start writing today :)
Day 1 - your best friend.
Day 2 - your crush.
Day 3 - your parents.
Day 4 - your sibling.
Day 5 - your dreams.
Day 6 - a stranger.
Day 7 - your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush.
Day 8 - your favourite internet friend.
Day 9 - someone you wish you could meet.
Day 10 - someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to.
Day 11 - a deceased person you wish you could talk to.
Day 12 - the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.
Day 13 - someone you wish could forgive you.
Day 14 - someone you’ve drifted away from.
Day 15 - the person you miss the most.
Day 16 - someone that’s not in your state/country.
Day 17 - someone from your childhood.
Day 18 - the person that you wish you could be.
Day 19 - someone that pesters your mind—good or bad.
Day 20 - the one that broke your heart the hardest.
Day 21 - someone you judged by their first impression.
Day 22 - someone you want to give a second chance to.
Day 23 - the last person you kissed.
Day 24 - the person that gave you your favorite memory.
Day 25 - the person you know that is going through the worst of times.
Day 26 - the last person you made a pinky promise to.
Day 27 - the friendliest person you knew for only one day.
Day 28 - someone that changed your life.
Day 29 - the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to.
Day 30 - your reflection in the mirror.

Monday, June 28, 2010


i like such a RUDE BOY ;]]]

Friday, June 25, 2010

The Back Harlow Road

I chose to back off from this open wound,
to sweep this all into the flames.
Scream under the streetlights 'till the voice takes leave.
Life's beautiful miseries.

yeahhhhhh :)

Saturday, June 19, 2010

ah.. heart broken ? yeah.. need to buy more glue


PShh..recently,it's like I'm locked in mortal combat. I haven't been drawing for such a long time. Well, could be cause I have some stupid exams and I don;t have a lot of time. It might be a good idea if I just stop all this stupid reading cus I don't get any wiser ... whatever. My last exam is on July, 12. So yeah... I wish I had something.. I don't know... Something long-term to look forward to. It might make university feel a little bit more worthwhile.

Soon is the festival! So the next week is all about dancing, good music and a lot of fun :) although I had some bad times, I hope it will be better...I guess all of the people around me are some conceited self-possessed ego freaks who just flaunt it and be proud of it. But I think that the festival will be nice:P
Yeah.. have a nice weekend:)
p.s. I've decided to write here more often :)))))

Thursday, June 17, 2010

hit, miss, miss again

Fog drifted up over the lake
Through my body and over my face
It knew I was alone
I'm feeling it now
This blanket is water
And it's holding me down
I am sinking today
Cold, black deep
Liquid night
All the others are just
Fat, chattering faces
Eating me, beating me
Helping me drown.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

she killed poetry

i've tried to find the album of "She Killed Poetry" but there was only one song available on the internet ;/
me = i killed poetry :PP

Monday, May 10, 2010


He kissed her;/

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


I love it I love it:)
It's an amazing song.. I used to like it at school.
I hate everything now. I want to go back ... miss having close friends.


I dive so deep in the sea
To avoid killer whales

Wednesday, April 7, 2010


It appears this is my first entry in a month. I guess, just, you know... my life isn't that interesting. I go to the university, to work and ... back to the campus. I don't know what to write. My thoughts .. they are just blank.
This day was cold. The wind was blowing so hard that my eyes were crying and when I finally got to the office my face was in tears and so ..red. Wearily, I'm so sick of this wind, this spring and this town.
Today at work I was alone and was watching through the windows. They are very large windows so I can see the whole terrace and the the blossom trees outside - all white and beautiful. Suddenly the wind took some of the white blossoms and bash them at the window. Then too exhausted to be annoyed all the blossoms crashed in the ground. It was really beautiful. It was just like someone was throwing flowers at me. And at this moment I felt happy :)

Thursday, March 11, 2010

in fields where nothing grew but weeds,
I found a flower at my feet,
Bending there in my direction,
I wrapped a hand around its stem,
I pulled until the roots gave in,
Finding there what I'd been missing,

But I know...
So I tell myself, I tell myself it's wrong.
There's a point we pass from which we can't return.
I felt the cold rain of the coming storm.

All because of you,
I haven't slept in so long.
When I do I dream of drowning in the ocean,
Longing for the shore where I can lay my head down,
I'll follow your voice,
All you have to do is shout it out.

Inside my hands these petals browned,
Dried up, fallen to the ground
But it was already too late now.
I pushed my fingers through the earth,
Returned this flower to the dirt,
So it could live. I walked away now.

But I know...
Not a day goes by that I don't feel this burn.
There's a point we pass from which we can't return.
I felt the cold rain of the coming storm.

All because of you,
I haven't slept in so long,
When I do I dream of drowning in the ocean,
Longing for the shore where I can lay my head down,
I'll follow your voice,
All you have to do is shout it out.

All because of you...
All because of you...

All because of you,
I haven't slept in so long.
When I do I dream of drowning in the ocean,
Longing for the shore where I can lay my head down,
Inside these arms of yours.

All because of you,
I believe in angels.
Not the kind with wings,
No, not the kind with halos,
The kind that bring you home,
When home becomes a strange place.
I'll follow your voice,
All you have to do is shout it out.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010


i'm a cruel witted mind ;/

Monday, January 25, 2010


I saw a strange old lady some days ago. She was dressed so nice with a nice coat and shoes... and then I saw her hair - There were like 10 paper-clamps in it and they were all in different colors :S

Friday, January 15, 2010


Човек на списъците като мен- а само аз нямам още списък с нещата, които се случиха през 2009-та, нито какво искам от 2010 изобщооооо....
АМа скоро ще седна да напиша нещо.
Сега пускам тоя пост мн бързо, защото вече ме чакат на спирката сигурно, но се сетих за една специална песен и исках да я постна тук. Не че съм я забравяла - така ми звъни телефона, но май я възприемах вече повече като рингтоун лол.
Та поздрав, за който го чете това!!!